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 RE: I love you Andrew, I...

Date:7/11/2024 7:33:46 PM

hey sorry its been a few days since i messaged but its been crazy. just know i love you and think of you always. i love and miss you all give the dogs a kiss for me i pray for you all, i love you. i cant wait to be in your arms

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A true Narcissist 
Why are you wanting to argue i just want to have 1being without you being mad or upset with me. i just need to hear from you know how you are how the dogs are know that you are ok and ask how im doing. ask if im ok i don't want to argue i dont wwnt to fight i want to talk to you but you call when im unable to be on here. im sorry im trying my best why are you always frustrated with me you told me to trust in you and im still believing in you, what is going on with you why are you acting like this you say you love me but you are always accusing me. you told me you would trust me. but you are acting like a different person. you say ive changed and thats because ive been beaten upnand always in fear and i cant even send you messages without people reading my message while i type it im trying my best baby but im losing my strength and im getting depressed. why d9nt you you move to moms you said you would. i love you i truly do and if i had m9ney on my phone i would call you everyday but i cannot. we are supposed to support each other. we are supposed to be a power c9uple who love is unbreakable i do love you but i need your help getting through this please , i need your love i need to be next to you i need your touch this place is evil.

MY REPLY: I'm sorry Andrew, I'm not mad I'm not upset and I definitely don't want to argue. I think it's time to go out separate ways. I love you but I can't be with you anymore. Remember I'm not your enemy. I wish you well.                        HIS REPLY : What are you saying im in love with you please stop this. don't please get ahold of my attorney and sign an affidavitt please so we can be back together please

Spell is Broken, The Love is Gone

 From Andrew

Babe i love you i cannot help us being in lock down this place is so shitty im sorry i do love you and im sorry i can't reply always but its not my faut please understand you constantly question my love but it sounds like you are the one who doesn't want me you seem to ignore the fact that i cannot help any of this if i could be next to you i would be but im stuck here im trying to keep myself strong why do you refuse to trust me and understand th3 conditions i canniot control it i do love you and only want to be there. please believe in me trust in me.

So much is said with this message, it provides the answers I have been seeking. I am not sure he knows how much he said in those few lines but it has definitely made me step back, analysi and realize that I can do better, I am worth better, I deserve better. I have been begging for attention, telling him I needed reassurance, and the same time I felt I was no longer his priority and this is the proof. From 4 different messages he took the time to write this message but ignored the messages I sent. There were no messages after , there were no request to video chat, there was nothing...except the slap on the face  I got from REALITY.

Le Mots

To:1261137: AO From:MM Subject:The other day I came... Date:1/5/2024 4:01:27 AM The other day I came across a media message in which you were telling me that you feared I had fallen out of love with you, that I didn't care about you, that I didn't want to talk to you anymore. All that because I had not talk to you in 2 days. But I'm supposed to believe you love me when literally we have gone 17 days without speaking to each other. I don't know why I reactivated this account...not sure what it would take to accept that you are not into me anymore, that you never were and realize that we are never going to be together again.

"Aging like a fine wine"

Coming home

coming back to my roots, my aafe place, my blog!

Without Expectations...

...and still disappointing.  If anything occured I have no recollection of, I remembet bits and pieces of the breath taking, wild west like starting of the encounter but after a mere few minutes I love lost conciousness, I passed out or whatever happened to me. Fast forward a few hours later, I wake up with a major hard on trying to be hump what seems to be the "top"  in a rather weird behavior. After assuming the fetal position and what many would consider an opening door to anal sex, I attempted going in, but the so welcoming hole was more of a tease then a pleaser. Two attempts later and virgin boi claims it's a one way only, and nothing would go in. 

I get up, shake it off and said outloud, "there will always be someone willing to give it away."

Les Mots

Everything seems pointless, in vain, for no matter from what angle I approach it, there always seems to be a new challenge waiting. In this game, there is no winner and there is no loser. Its more like how much can someone handle before throwing in the next challenge.

I have learned that money, luxuries and material stuff is not worth anything.

Sunflower Patch Spring '22

My Sunflower Patch Spring 2022

Goodbye BMW

Hmmm

 So what is the point behind pretending to want to hang around someone just to completely ignore them while hanging out and paying all attention in their phones.

Sitting across from each other, acting like a completely strangers, and when words are exchanged, they carry a feeling of being forced out.

The easiest way out would to simply ask the person to leave, after all the encounter is anything but productive, it's a WASTE OF TIME. 

Want to use your freaking phon ethen stay at home, why bother asking me to hang out just to .