Fantasy, Platonic, Fake or True?
Million of questions run through my head as I write this blog, questions I might never get an answer tom but one question that keeps poundering my mind is...why did I allowed myself to go through this once again. Same situation but with deeper wounds than last years Thanksgiving nightmare.
I can't say I dislike him, I'm still in love with him, but as I keep writing a question often asked by Patrick becomes my number one question...Why did I fall in love with him? Why did II love him so much?
For 10 years Patrick painted a picture perfect...he often mentioned he was not like "the others" reffering to my ex's.
When I decided to take a chance on Patrick, I set myself for failure and disappointment, the true love he said to have for me had no roots and when it came to verbal abuse, he had first prize. Yet, he shared similar dreams and goals, none of which ever happen.
Today, as I try to cope and accept the reality of the situation, I can't help to wonder, did he even love me? He gave up on me a bit too soon and too quick, specially after given 10 years of history. Nonetheless, I can honestly say...
Patrick was my one true love.
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