Alright I'm back...I've been doing good expressing my thoughts in here for the last 2 days. I know tomorrow and Friday will be a bit hard since I won't be in town, yeap I'm heading to the Magical World of Hollywood. I have a training to attend, my knowledge on HIV and Case Mangement will increase YAY!! On another good note I got an application as a HIV Testing Counselor Trainer...I will be training people (if I get the job) and guess what? It's for the State...Mauro<----crossing fingers----->this is one of the goals I've worked so hard for. OH Great Spirits help me!!! My mood now is between High and Low...I just found out I am not as strong as I thought I was, I'm avoiding situations, not facing things that are bothering, all I'm doing is typing them in here, so if any of you have suggestions they are welcome. Regarding my "words can be powerfull" post...I feel I am avoiding reality just becaused I don't want to hurt anyone. Back in my shelf...away from dreams and fantasies...this is my reality. I feel like nothing really matters (see I told you it was getting to me) in a way I'm letting it, I don't feel like fighting it, I just feel like sleeping till tomorrow. I have to be up by 5:00am (Damn its been a while since I woke up at that time) My eyes are tired, I should get away from this computer and rest, hoping tomorrow will be better, hoping tomorrow would shine, hoping tomorrow will bring happinnes, hoping it will be my day. Ok, I'm out of here...sometimes I wished I lived alone in this house...someday:-) Al Ratito