I tried...I gave my best shot, made some errors along the way but was able to recognize, accept, change, apply and move on, being a better human being. I guess what is not meant to happen, simply won't happen but what is meant to happen, will, even if its only meant to last for a day.
I can step back and see the lessons that apply to me, I welcome and embrace them. I am unique in so many ways, I am special, that I have always known...I'm just struggling with accepting my unique being.
So I say goodbye to another dream, made reality, turned tears. Thank you for feeding the dream and for lighting the hope, the feelings that remained are my own to deal with, as far as you, well the only words left to say are Goodbye Robert!
As that door closes, I decided to close and lock any door that links me to the gay lifestyle. I am a homosexual, I am proud of who I am, I won't deny my sexuality nor will I turn my back on the cause, but I will turn a blind eye to the lifestyle. It doesn't represent me, I don't fit or belong, I have grown sick and tired of the games, the lies, the illusions and all that it stands for.
I will live in solitude, guarding my heart and home. Ciao...may I never have to enter that world again...
