I tried as hard as I could and fought as much as my body and mind allowed me before surrendering to this pain turned fire turned into self-destruction. The process has began, I've lost myself, my essence has vanished into thin air...the pain deep in my soul grows stronger as each day comes to an end.
I thought I would not meet this end once again...I have the tools, the knowledge, the experience, the support...I got it all that is needed to fight back but I have lost the lust for life, slowly I'm tearing this mortal body, piece by piece it knows it's the end...doesn't hurt anymore, not as much as the pain of holding on to a life that was not meant for me. All those who wished to see me torn, fallen, weak, bleeding, all those people have won...although they will never get to see me down, for I have decided to keep smiling, not letting anyone know what is really going on...soon, very soon it all be over...very soon@!
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