Aimer mon ennemi

Time has frozen on me...all my emotions and feelings drown in sorrow. The world around me continues moving and I can't do anything to slow it down. Im staying behind, lost in the past, hurt by the present and tormented by the future. Slowly things are being taken away from me, everything I put my hope, my faith, my heart, my life, my essence, all going away. I'm left alone, with nothing, the place I once called home, is not the happy place it used to be, now its a reminder of what I held close to my heart. I thoutht I was building a home, instead I built a grave, I have no where to go, no where to call home, no one to call my own...alone in a dark corner, sitting on the floor wondering how I got here....how to go back when you have no idea where each part of you is. I feel so alone, so empty yet so full of anger, i have lost a big part of me along the way, I thought I had it all and that all was perfect...and now my all is a corner. I need to be love, I need to feel wanted, needed, desired but instead I keep losing myself, trying. I need a new love, a new oportunity, the chance that was stolen from me.