say I am truly sorry for the way I treated you....I realize now that its too late of what I had with you...I took it for granted.....and like all good things in my life, I pushed it away.....for that I am sorry. There is not a day goes by that I dont think of you. I just needed to let you know this, sorry if it brings up bad memories for you.....I just wanted you to know that
I'm not the cold blooded asshole I was/am.....my door and heart is always open for you, and always will be....
Yous, Patrick
I wanted to believe...I was a fool to believe a cold hearted person could actually feel something. I wanted the relationship to work out so badly that I believe in anything I guess....last Monday the least I saw was the understanding and warmed Patrick that wrote that email. Who I saw was the cold hearted person that doesnt give a damn about me, the one who thinks Im a horrible being, that shows no emotion or remorse towards anything. There was no need to cry, he is not worth my tears. Begging was out of the question, his plan was made clear from the start.
The level of maturity between us was clear...he has gone back to old much familiar shoes, while me, torn between my heart and my self respect and dignity, had to take center stage to and said, no more...it broke my heart, still cries...but I had to accept, I can't make someone love me. He is doing his routine...back online to spot the best next catch, thinking I would eventually get in touch and beg for another chance...but little does he know that yes emotional beings can offer the best love ever but we also know when to go from one extreme to the other.
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