"I Feel So Lonely"

It is hard to accept that letting the other person know about my feelings would turn into one of the most dissapointing experiences of my life. I would like to say it is a shame that it had to come to this but I'm kind of glad to know that somewhere deep inside of me, I have come to accept it's for the best...I had to learn, I had to cried, I needed to understand who I am as a person and what I am willing to accept from someone that proclaims to love me. I know deep inside that this is a one way relationship, I am alone, missing him, but I know he is not missing me, his life goes on with or without me and that is not a relationship, at least not the relationship that I deserve to have. I need to have someone who at the end of the day, no matter how sour the fight was, he can still come to me, for comfort, for support, for love...at least for companionship. He hung up the phone on me, and I guess that matters more than my feelings, not a text, not a call, not a sign...where is my other half? My strenght now is focused on getting through this...facing him...getting my things...knowing I did my best, accepting my limits, working on my flaws, knowing what I am looking for and what I am willing to give. I need to pick up from where I left off, need to get my life back...I will continue to polish my life, do my best to achieve my dreams and goals, work hard to become a better person, focusing on my best attributes and working hard on perfecting my flaws. I need to keep in mind...I can't make someone love me...no matter how hard you try, in the end you will feel empty and alone, just how I am feeling right now....