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Endless nights fighting my inner demonds Being deaf to the voices inviting me to act on my feelings Slowly getting weaker from both The battle against my physical nemesis and to the worst one within, my emotions. I fall on my knees and raised my hand in sign of help Not a single hand to feel, no eye contact made, no sound to hear My greastest fear has once again declared battle And this time I feel like giving in, I have nothing left to lose Nothing but words from people, lovers, family and my own A trunk full of memories that seem to be vanishing with time from times that seem now gone One voice keeps saying "You deserve the best" What's the best? Nothing I choose ever stays with me Another voice screems "There is so much to live for" It seems that my life has gone backwards, The now should have been the past and the past my future And as numbers add to my life, I feel less and less in touch with the one I once was Heart and soul keep breaking, don't bother glueing back together A numbness takes over, the fire within is dying I feel cold now, I feel week now, I feel hopeless now Is this the life I'm supposed to live, a life alone, a life in the darkness? Pillman has gone away and my body notices it I know it's advancing, I know what is doing Yet I'm not afraid, I look forward to it, never before I wish something so much. I wanted to love, but I learned that loving too much is bad and often drives people away, but so does loving too little I spoke my mind, and what people heard got them angry and they got angry when I said nothing. I lived, but the more I lived, the more people I met and the more lonely I feel now Four endless days and nights now, alone, cold, weaker Why live another ten years like this? Why bother living another day like this? Those who said they loved me have run away The voices are talking again...they are telling me to do it Joining their plead is my heart, my emotions and my brain I can't hear no one else...I'm all alone once again!