TRY

Many years later...changes have been inevitable...some things still remaind the same.I am no longer the child that once confined his life to this blog. Looking back at the many post and stuff that I posted here, all I can say is that I feel that I'm still stuck, Stuck in the same emotions, feeling lonely, feeling dependable on people, giving them such power over me that one unstable move and all that I've built on my own, shakes and trumbles down, threating to fall down. Lovers I have had many, yet I feel as if I haven't been loved at all. Playing the game of constant reasuring and chasing around has become bored, lame and totally what I had not planned for my life. So...back in here? Why? I'm 31 years old and it seems as if I still that kid from many years back...not everything has changed, The pain and sadness has awaken the voices in my mind, voices I can no longer control, it feels as if I am surrendering myself to them, as if I have known all along that I was eventually going to come back for help. Is the sweet tone of those voices that tells me what to do next...SWEET SURRENDER! My life, my body, my thoughts, my emotions, my self-controlvoices in my mind have awaken