Save Me From Being Alone

After six months of trying to make something happen, six months of believing there was something, six months of having faith and hope in something that was hopeless and that even with the deepest faith is not going to change. A relationship that took me by storm, bringing hope, joy, illusions, dreams, love and above it all...deception. The first relationship to which I truly committ myself and the first relationship in which I feel, I was always an accesory not a boyfriend. A relationship that made me cry to the point of exhaustion, a love that put me to the test each and everyday, a love for which I gave my best each and everyday, and no matter my approach, I was always in the wrong...no matter how many times I bowed, hoew many times I lower my head, the endless embarrasing begging that took place, no matter the promises and the dreams, and the chats, no matter the conversations and the agreements, like a river to the ocean...it always follow the same path, even when a new path had been created, it made it's way back to the usual ways. This song describes how I am feeling right now, a cry that has been going on for the last three months and after dissappointing so many people who stood by me, I find myself alone, fighting against a feeling that seems to drag me down and knowing this I don't seem to find the will power to stop it. I feel lost, in my own room, I feel weak, to my own emotions, I feel that I have wasted 6 months of life, and unless I give it an soon, I might end up wasting a life time.Many times I've tried to speak and get a clear answer but as usual, there never is a star8 answer. I have lost the faith, the hope, the trust, the love, the confidence, the dreams, the will to do anything to save what's left of it...it's seems like I am alone in this task. The pain still prevails, but not as painfull as the first time...how did I allow myself to end up in this mess? Why did I let my guard down? Why does a fool believe that there is love for him out there? Why did I allowed myself to dream? And how did I get up from this? I'm lost I can't find my way...can somebody here, I'm crying for shelter. Save me from being alone and from losing myself in a laberynth created by my own mind. I feel prisioner in my own room...not being able to say or do as I please...how did I allowed myself to hit this low, low bottom, there isn't even love to give me the energy to continue, I am so stupid for falling into this puzzle that slowly drowns me away. To live in a house not a homeI've counted my tears falling down each night for all these yearsI can't believe it ends like thisWe've gone on our own seperate ways to find ourselves againWhere should I go from here can I live here without your loveSomehow someday I'll make it throughPlease help me ease the painI'm lost I can't find my wayHope and pray it will end in time the pain insideCan somebody hear I'm crying for shelterPlease help me see this throughA world that can no longer feelSeems that they have abandoned me forgotten meDo I blame myselfSave me from being aloneHow can you mend a lonely soulTrying to leave the past the sorrow and the liesHow can I forgive someone who just doesn't understandThat true love is gone awayMaybe it's for the best to live these lives on our ownTo say goodbye still I wonder whyPlease help me ease the painI'm lost I can't find my wayHope and pray it will end in time the pain insideCan somebody hear I'm crying for shelterPlease help me see this throughA world that can no longer feelSeems that they have abandoned me forgotten meDo I blame myselfSave me from being alone(To live in a house(Without your love)(Still wonder why)(Can somebody hear)(Can somebody hear)(I'm crying for shelter)Save me from being alone